yes, i know we are halfway through the first month of this new year. but i am still welcoming it with open arms.
i kept putting off writing my First Post of the Year because i don't really have a sweeping word of the year, or resolutions, or a must-do list. i did my own 2014 reflection list and it almost felt too personal and too big to share it publicly. i want to fold it up into a little square and tuck it away in my pocket like bilbo with his ring.
although i don't have a concrete word or roadmap, i DO know where i am headed. i have cleared a LOT of dusty brush out of the way over the last several months, and i can clearly see my path. (it's glowing in a rich, warm light.) i am taking steps/skipping down that path every day. i have so much excitement and happiness traveling this road that it's almost too much to contain in one body. i feel like little bits of confetti or sparks of light might sneak out of my ears at any moment and i don't know if i'd be embarrassed or break out in laughter if that did indeed happen.
i am filled with gratitude for this life that i've been gifted. my days are rich with hugs and laughter and jokes and funny faces and warm moments. i have conversations with chris and our kids that are deep and real and rewarding. our puppies are house-trained and fluffy and full of love that they show without reservation. my weeks are filled with fun projects and jobs i love. i am stretching my body open with yoga. i am filling my ears with music that almost brings me to tears (of joy). i am wearing clothes that make me feel good about myself. i am working on a project for an absolute dream client. i signed two contracts this week with fun companies who i'm so excited to work with.
before you start rolling your eyes at all this goodness, please know i have had some very dark times in my life. and i went through a really tough period last year. so to you out there who may be in a dark time of your own, please please know it gets better. it gets better.