i started running competitively when i was in 4th grade. i ran cross country and track in high school and for a division 1 college (go UNC!). i ran post-collegiately for a short while, too. believe me, i have seen my fair share of people (male and female) struggling with eating disorders. i saw people do some crazy sh*t in college!
because of my background and the fact that i have 2 daughters who were competitive gymnasts and now run competitively (and a son who runs competitively as well), it is super important to me that we have healthy discussions about body image, exercise, and eating in our house.
we steer away from words like "skinny" and "fat" and instead use words like "healthy", "muscular", and "strong". we talk about how bodies come in SO many shapes, sizes and colors and do insane things! we’ve seen dancers and athletes compete and perform at really high levels, no matter their size or shape. we focus more on eating healthy and exercising than what size jeans we wear. we don’t own a scale. we also take days off from exercise and eat lots of treats because life must have balance and moderation.
this life is hard enough without having to take everything so seriously. yes, our bodies should be treated with respect and yes they give us energy if we treat them right. but there is so much to be said for protecting our inner soul and magic. protecting our inner self by laughing and knowing we are beautiful and have gifts to offer, no matter what shape we come in. we are still amazing beings even if we had too many chocolates or took an extra day off from going to the gym.
having said all of that, i’ve found myself in a place of unhealth. not exercising as much as I’d like, eating a bunch of junk, not drinking enough water, not getting enough sleep, and letting my anxiety get the best of me. i feel drab, negative, i’m not laughing as much and i’m acting heavy. i DO have a great habit of being grateful, and I have so much to be thankful for, so at least i have that.
i’ve started an instagram account @gettingtherebeinghere where i’ll be sharing my journey back to wellness. i'll also be posting here.